Ahh Merry Boxing Day one and all. :) I hope you all had a fabulous Christmas. I've just got back from my Uncle and Aunties for the old Boxing Day cold meat fiasco. It wasn't too bad really. It could have been worse. lol.

I decided. I'm trying to name my top ten moments of 2010. Just to do something a bit more interesting. But i highly doubt i'll be able to pick just ten. I think this years been pretty sweet too be honest. So here goes. (Also there not going to be in order because that would be too tricky).

1. College. Yes that was actually a highlight of the year. I met some amazing people. Did some amazing shows, taught back at my old school, performed at a Christmas concert DRUNK!! haha. Oh god. So much good stuff happened. I suppose this brings us onto number two which would have to be...

2. Parties!! College parties at Marks. Wahey. They were always. Erm Interesting ;) haha. Then other parties with the normal friends, as well as nights out in Brighton, Crawley town, Timmy's 21st in Southampton ahh its been a good one for drunken antics. :)

3. Tunisia!! Ahh That was such a good holiday! :) Met some amazing people. Some of which i've already met before. lol. It was just two weeks of chilling in the sun, drinking, having a laugh. Having a midget entertainer. WOW. That was good.

Okay okay... I need to go now. So i'll finish the rest of my top ten like tomorrow. haha. Fail.
Peace.
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Its so strange, the thought of distance. My best friend spends more or less a year away in another country, comes home and we pick up like i saw her yesterday. Then there are some people "friends" i suppose, who live in the same town, you see every week and it seems like you haven't seen them in a million years, share no interests and are just generally distant.

It puts everything into perspective, when she comes back. There's only one person in the world who i could sit and talk to for hours, about life. Our thoughts, feelings, inner hopes and dreams, shark week for crying out loud! After an evening catching up with the best friend it really makes me think that i want a life. I don't want to be stuck here. We were saying, there are those people who are going to stay in one place, work in a shop for there whole life and be happy with it. I'm not that person.

I don't know what it is about travelling, whether its the thought of meeting new people, experiencing new culture, finding myself, learning new things, remembering old things. It just seems like the right path for me. And there's no bigger place to discover yourself than USA.

I kind of just had to blog to get it all off my chest. It makes me feel a bit better about myself knowing i've told someone this. Even if it is a website. No one understands really. Well they don't understand because i don't really know how to express it in words.

I mean there's a million fire flys out there. But i'm ready to catch just one. I'm ready to leave, take off, discover and learn. Its about time. I've been saying it for about two years now!! Damn that little thing called money. :(

Peace.
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MY Year in Pictures. :)

Four years this Christmas. Time flies. Forever with us. :)

How on earth is it already nearly Christmas 2010? Where has this year gone?? Seriously soooo much has happened this year. Lets have a look back shall we.

College. What a good time that was. New people, new experiences, new adventure. But even that seemed to fly by. I mean i was there till July. We did numerous performances and assessments but looking back it seemed like it was over in a week. Ah shucks. I miss it. Kind of. I miss some of the people!! DEFFO do not miss my hair. Who actually let me have SHORT black hair. You horrible horrible people.

Tunisia 2010 came next. Ahh that was a super awesome holiday. Met some amazing people. And re-discovered some one i haven't seen in ages and randomly met again. Small world eh.

Work at Vrigin Active came to an end... Happy days about that. It was a good job, once again for the people. But i definitely never want to be a Lifeguard again in my life. Unless its on Bondi beach. And that would purely be to hang out with the hot lifeguards there. But yes one door closes another one opens. Back to gymnastics. Which was inevitable it was going to happen. I'm glad i had the time off, it made me realise how much i missed it.

Camp America application. (which i still haven't been placed) but i'm going to a fair in Jan so hopefully i'll know by then...

A year of old's, new's, bad, good, exciting, boredum, hyperness, drunkess, hangovers, friendship, i would like to say romance but hmm, family, good health (apart from the swine flu situation), numerous hairstyles, 19th birthday, wii fit, re-discovering and general merriment.

Good year me thinks. Here's to the next.
Peace.
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Oh my i haven't updated in a while. Lets see whats new? whats new?

So my Camp America application is complete, i've just got to wait till November now before my application starts to circulate America. I'm too excited. I hate waiting. Although this month i have quite a lot going on so its going to come round quickly i think.

I've gone back to coaching gymnastics, which is so odd. I mean i love being back and stuff, but its seriously like i never left. Nothing has really changed, apart from a few new people and coaches. :) But this weekend is going to be really good i think. I've got to judge at the Sussex Championships, which is a competition i used to compete in like every year for about ten years. So its going to be rather strange judging there. It makes me feel so grown up. I hope people remember me. :)

Then starting next Thursday i am acting at this years Shocktober Fest at Tullys farm. Its going to be such hard work, but super fun. I had my first rehearsal last week and it was amazing. Ahh. I'm so excited for everything. So that will bring me up till November. AND i forgot the best part. I'm getting paid for acting. HELL YEAH. :D :D

Well i have to go to work now. :( Sad times.

Peace.
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So i'm bored. So i was searching through the world wide web. People's blogs etc. And i found some pretty pictures. So here they are. But i forgot where i got them all from. If any one knows. Do let me know. :)




WOW. He's beautiful. <3



I think this was taken from the same blog as above... Which i forgot what one. But its really pretty. I want to take a photo like it :)




I LOVE THIS PHOTO!! Its amazing. Shame you can't take photos like this any more. :(

Peace.
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Right so, after i sent my application off i joined to Camp America facebook group where i found two other people who have applied this year. We've been chatting constantly on facebook about it because too be honest i think my family and friends are sick of me going on already. But they both said they heard back from there interviewer like the next day. So i was a bit annoyed that three days later i still hadn't heard.

I went back onto my account and changed the person i wanted to interview me, half an hour later. BOOM email received with an interview date. HURRAH. Tuesday 24th August my Camp America journey REALLY begins.

I've become completely camp obsessed. I go on the website EVERY day. Watch the videos read the blogs, google camps that look cool. Ahh. I don't think i will contain myself for another nine months! haha.

I've started to plan the after camp part too now. Trek America are a travel company who work along side Camp America and offer camp workers a ten percent discount. So that's a bonus. The ones i'm looking at are about three weeks travelling so i'm thinking i'm going to need to save about a minimum of two grand for that. So yes. My life is OFFICIALLY on hold for the next year. But you know what. Its totally gonna' be worth it. :)

Peace.
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SO, I've just sent off my application form and first payment for Camp America 2011. Which i am so so so so so excited about already! It looks soooo good. My friend is there at the moment, but she's gone through another company. Ahh it just looks so good. I mean the facilities aren't brilliant etc but still! What an experience eh.

I've got so much to sort out between now and then. I mean i have to save money, get my visa, sort out flights, save save save, pay the rest of the costs. I seriously want to go now. I mean to don't even know when i'll be going. I'm waiting for an interview date now. But it should be pretty soon i'm guessing? The early bird catches the worm and all that. ahh.

Well i had to blog and just tell you all this. NICOLLE IS EXCITED. :)

Peace.
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Doesn't it feel like a million years ago people were getting excited over Bebo and MSN. You used to come home from school and all you had to worry about was joint conversations, minesweeper flags, how many loves you got that day on Bebo and creating skins. Life felt so complicated then, when you had too many conversations going at once or you had used your three loves for the day. It literally seems like a million years ago now.

Now we have to worry about going to work, paying tax, car insurance, MOT, phone bills, TV licence, petrol. And thats before the month has even started, you've then got to fork out for nights out for birthdays and new clothes. (which obviously i'm not complaining about) But seriously though, how on earth are we ever meant to save for things we want. Like to travel or to buy a house of our own? It is literally impossible. There are so many things i want to do in my life, but it seems to all be going so quickly. I'm thinking when am i going to have time to do it?

Okay i'm talking as if im about 50 now, but approaching 19 i do feel as if i need to do something with my life. Which i do i know. But i'm not ready to settle for a full time office or shop job. I'm not. I get bored of doing things i don't want to do. So how am i ever going to hold down a job i hate? Yes i want to travel. But i need the money. I'd love to move out. But i need the money. Its a little bit ridiculous. Do i still want to go to drama school?? To be totally honest i really really don't know.

I've been questioning things a lot lately... thing is eventually i need to stop questioning things and start to answer myself...

Peace.
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Sunrise on our last day :(



I really like this, it took me ages to get it right.



I took this randomly not expecting it to look cool




And last of all... I don't know. :)

Hannah, Me, Ben



Poor Karl :(



I'm super duper cool. :)

I'll upload the pretty artistic ones in a new post now. :)
Peace.
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Jeeeez, i totally keep forgetting to update this. Life has been pretty busy. Okay whats new i hear you ask?

Well... I've finished college now. Passed that. Very happy with the grades i got. But now i officially have nothing to do in life. Hmm maybe this is the chance to start writing my book! What should i write it about? I'll let my little brain tick away and see what she comes up with.

Just got back off holiday. JEE WIZZ. It was amazing. Met some of the best people i think i've ever met. In total i think there were like 15 of us in the group. But people left throughout and it was all very lonely towards the end. Just leaving me and Ben to keep the group going. It was so hot. I'm pretty brown. Totally gonna loose the tan quickly though due to shitty english weather. :( I'll put some photos on in a new post because its easier that way. haha.

My mum thinks the maid stole a dress she has. Its annoyed me quite a bit because why would the maid want a crappy Primark dress? Its silly. paha.

I applied for a new job just now. Weirdest job application ever. Meh tbh i don't think i'll get it. But heyyyy. I've gotta keep trying. OHHHHH. Went to see Toy Story 3 last night. Its soooo sad. Seriously i think i cried more than i did at the Lion King. Its the end of an era. Poor Woody and the Gang. (if you haven't seen it you totally have to go). The cinema was literally full of 18+ people. I think its because we grew up with Toy Story and like the kids of today have what? Hannah Montana and Spongebob. lol.

Well i think i've rambled on. I'll try and keep this updated now i have no life.
Peace.
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I'm really really really not in the mood for anything right now. ACTUALLY. i am really in the mood to quit work. I am really in the mood to fly over to America to visit my best friend who i miss sooo much. I would like to be able to drive legally. I want a car. I want to live closer to my college friends. :) OH...

The biggest want of all, i would very much like ALL men to stop being total head fucks. Like seriously. Everyone in my life atm seems to think its okay to be utter dicks, AND get away with it? Can any one explain this? Becuase i can't as hell figure it out. :(

Going back to my last post. I really really don't know what to do come September? I mean i know there's loads i want to do. But its actually getting the job etc. Personally i think i just need a job, where i can go to mon-fri (becuase i'm fed up of working weekends) and it pays well. Then from that job, i can save plently of money and afford to go to Camp America. Or at least just get out of this crappy whole town :).

I've come to the conclusion i think i need happy pills. Coz i'm always really like MEH. or feeling like i want to cry. or drunk. aha. which makes it even worse and i STILL cry. Like when i think about leaving college i get really sad, becuase there all really good friends now. When i think about September i think who the hell am i going to hang out with? Everyone's like going to uni and such. So i am actually going to be stuck.

MEH MEH MEH. I'm going to cry. :)

Peace.

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So the weirdest thing happened to me the other night. I was asleep. (as i tend to be alot) and in my dream i became paralyzed. Seriously it seemed soooo real. I remember like flinching in my sleep because it hurt. And then i woke up the next morning. Actually couldn't move!! My back hurt soooo much. And it hurt all all all day. Work was much fun (not) and now. It being two days later still hurts. Jeez. What is up with that. Its so odd. God knows what i did to it.

Work has been mucho boring in the last few weeks, so i have become known as the Artist of the lifeguard team. One little boy called me an "artist teacher" bless him. And i've also been told i am wasted as a lifeguard and that i need to get a job in art. haha people are so funny. :) So yeah here are a few of my creations...

They all look quite cool when there all put next to each other. :) I constantly get people saying oh you must be bored. I'm like YEAH pretty much. God if one of them is a mystery shopper im screwed. haha.

Half term now. Not really got much planned. Got a party to go to tomorrow, with a broken back should be fun. And then i think thats about it. Stupid being poor. FML. haha. And i'm also trying to decide wtf im going to do with my life come September.

Ahh well take each day as it comes eh.

Peace.

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Okay i know i am constantly moaning on here. But seriously. WHY do people feel the need to jump in front of trains? And not only that. On a Saturday night at 8oclock when people are trying to get home to go out!! It really does piss me off. So in the long run. I didn't go out tonight. Just stayed in blogging. YAY. Well actually i'm a geek and i rather enjoy doing that :).

My day was rather funny. We went shopping in Pompy town. Went to the outlet shops first. which were a bit of a let down. We started the day in this cafe place thing, and i wanted the breakfast without the beans. So i was like "Can i please swap the beans for a sausage". And the dopey woman was like "We can't swap beans for meat. You can have another egg" So i was like finnnne. My breakfast came. Twas bloody lovely. With my ONE bit of bacon. I mean how silly is that. One bit of bacon on a fry up. Stupido. And some boy spilt his drink all down him and on the floor. And i was sitting there heaving because this stuff on the floor looked like he sicked it up. And i'm not gonna' lie. I don't do sick. At all. haha.

But yeah shopping was a bit of a bust. Got some bits from the Cadbury's shop. Theeeen, my mother and auntie decided to go into this "cheap pub" they found last time. (turns out it was a Weatherspoons, silly old people) :). So we went in there at about 3. Three bottles of wine and a cider later we stagger out around seven o'clock. Shops shut. Train station locking up. Ahhh. My mum NEVER drinks. Like never ever. So it was rather hilarious to see her drunk. And they were on the train ringing my dad up pretending to be the queen. Ahh was rather humorous. But then the selfish fucker jumped in front of the train and we got delayed. Argh.

Tomorrow i plan to have a sexy lay in. And then i'm going to my friends nannies for dinner and to watch Dancing on ice. I love her nan. More than mine tbh. haha. Mines a loopy crazy nan.

Well i'm going to catch Spider Man now. :)
Peace.
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Well tbh, i don't actually think anyone cares that i haven't been here. As i don't think any one reads it. So im saying sorry to myself. Because i know in years to come i will read this and think "wow, why was i such an aggressive, moody, bored, i want so much in life person?" haha. I make myself laugh.

So whats new with you? With me? Well. College is going well... i say well. Its sooooo hard! like seriously. At the moment we have to do the following (all over lapping):
* Learn naturalistic monologue
*Learn non naturalistic monologue
*Revise Shakespeare monologue (or pick and learn new one if old one wasn't long enough. Which mine so wasn't) :(
*Learn Scene
*Learn poem about sex (totally awesome and i love it. i'll write a bit in a sec)
*Log book for physical theatre
*Log book x3 for monologues
*Workshop leadership....

I think thats it. But come on!! I go to college three days a week. And on the days im not at college i work. So i have NO time what so ever for me. I just took a week off because i just felt physically and mentally dead. (and the fact i was ill but thats besides the point).

But yeah this poem... Its so totally amazing. Its about this girl who goes from a normal night out with her friends to becoming a prostitute. So when we perform it on stage, we get to wear very little... and rip our clothes and stuff. EEEK. Its gonna be amazing. I would write some of it out. But i can't be arsed to run downstairs to get it. *Note to self, learn lines for that* lol.

Love life? Ehhh. So doesn't exist at the mo. I mean if you know me... Or talk to me you will probably know the head fuck situation i have to deal with right now. So lets not go there.

I still really REALLY hate where i'm living. I look at my room now and think. GOD i can be doing soooo much more than Blogging from here. I could be any where else in the world... If only that stupid little thing called money didn't play such a huge part in this. MEH.

Going out tomorrow night for the first time in forever. And i have not got a clue what to wear. And i need to look good because i still have a crusty nose from my cold. So i need to divert attention haha.

Well, i think thats my mind empty now.. OH. I booked my theory today. Friday 9th April at 10.30am. Scared much?? i keep failing the mock ones. I'm screwwwwed. ahhh.

Well i'm going to play in the rain.
Peace.
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Bonjourno.