Ahh. So i've now started college!! It is mad. They dont call it intensive acting for no reason. Its only day four and we've already been cast in a play, doing our two monologues for drama school, starting on our lamda exams. Ahh. Its all good. Oh and we get to do an assignment over the whole yeah. And get this... I get to BLOG my essays. Ahh. Im totally amazed. Its going to be the most fantastic thing ever. I wonder if i can ramble in my world as much as i do in real life. All the people on the course are pretty sweet. :). There's a good mix of people so its nice to mingle and not be with like the same as my usual lot. But im not going to lie. I need to talk to some of the hot guys!! Ahh im not gonna' let an opportunity like college guys down! There are some rather dashing ones i must admit.

Hmm work isn't going too bad either. I had to call in sick for the first time on Saturday. (today now being Tuesday) and i still feel like utter crap. I've got the worst cough in the world! It actually really hurts. And i feel like crying just coz' i want to get rid of it. It seems to be getting worse not better! Which utterly sucks.

Its so strange now. Like everyone, all the girls and boys from school and sixth form have all gone there separate ways. All the uni people are moved in and joining carious clans and societies. A few of us are at college. And some people are working!! Its mad to think how much we wished our school days away and laughed when the parents said "they are they best days of your life". I hate to admit it but there true! I mean don't get me wrong college is going to be a wicked experience but its no sixth form! I mean i don't know everyone for starters!! And that might sound weird. but its true. Im used to at least knowing who people are. Even if i wasn't friends with everyoneeee. I could still talk to them. But at college i feel like i would get stabbed talking to some... Hmm i shall let you know my progress.

Ohhhh one more thing. Im now a brunette. Ahhh. And i love it. For now. :)

Peace.
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Aha, i just read back my last post. I think i was going through some emotional self conscious crap!! TBH the new start didn't happen. I still eat just as much chocolate, and drink way too much diet coke. But like i said im not fat so i don't see the point. I did go to the gym last week though. Shocker. Naaa i will start going more. :) I promise.

Start college on Tuesday! :) I'm actually really looking forward to it. Just being able to do some drama again! I've been going crazy not acting. I think ive been a bit of a drama queen at home and work to make up for it. But yeah should all be good. Apart from the hour train ride every day. Not looking forward to that i dont think. :( Ah well. Gives me time to learn lines eh.

I've decided i want to grow my hair again. :). Or at least get extensions that are the same colour as my now white hair. Ahh. Or dye it brown? Hmm. I wonder how many posts i have written mention my hair. aha.

Peace.
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Do you ever get that feeling where you just want to be different? Even if its just for a day? Either skinnier, taller, prettier, fatter, funnier, smarter, thicker? What ever it is that you want you be i wish you could just do it when you want to.

I've suddenly realised that im not the person that im making out i am. I feel as if i need to change to really become the person i am? I dont think it makes sense... im sort of typing all my thoughts and if they dont make a full sentence then im sorry.

I really want something to come out of my life? I want to be successful. I dont want to be stuck in a dead end job or whatever. And tbh i want to get out of doing things i dont like or i dont want to do sooner rather than later.

I think i need to loose weight. No im not fat. But for the field im interested in [Acting and what not] you need to feel confident in who you are. And im not feeling that at the moment. I've put on so much weight since quitting gymnastics and its only just hit me. Its coz' im lazy i know that. But change has to start somewhere eh. :).

So the new me starts tomorrow!! :)

Peace.
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So im sitting in the front room watching the Simpsons. And its brought me to the question. Why are they yellow? Coz there a "normal" family in the sense that they are like mum dad and kids. Whatever. But then why are they yellow?! There really isnt a need for them to be is there?

Went to see "I love you Beth Cooper" last night! What a jolly good film. I haven't laughed that much at a film in a while now. :). But i was rather peeped off coz my student card has ran out so i had to pay sodding adult prices!! What a rip off that was. Seven pound or something like that. I can but a Nandos for that much!! wow. But yeah it was a good film. But like all films lately it just made me think arghhhhh!!!

Coz nothing ever ever ever happens like they do in films. Can anyone actually own up and say "im a not so pretty girl yet i got the hunk of the school to fall madly in love with me then at prom i turned out to be a real stunning girl"... Guys cumon. It doesn't happen does it?! And i will happily write a retraction if people actually have proof that this happens. :).

It just got me thinking about everything and really makes you think MEH. Especially when everyone around you has boyrfriends or girlfriends and are all loved up and your just like dum di dum dum dum. Meh.

Being eighteen totally kicks arse! :). Woo. I love being able to just go into Tesco or whatever and buy alcohol. I got so so so drunk on Saturday! But it was amazing. I only managed to spend £4!! the advantages of being a girl eh ;).

Well i think i better go take a nap now.

Peace.
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Well Well Well. The first update on my brand new shiny red laptop! Woo! :). So it was my eighteenth birthday yesterday!! Finally it arrived. It feels as if i've been waiting. So yeah. After a day with the girls baking cakes and being wrapped up in clingfilm and being pushed to the ground!! Then trying to get back up... (yeah it was actually very funny...) Then we went out for a meal with the family. Twas really good. :).

Its weird being old enough to drink now.. And get this i didnt even get asked for ID! Damn! haha. But going into town for the first time tonight. Should be a laugh. :). Lets just hope i survive in my new killer heels! Ahh.

I havent updated in a while... but not alot has really happened... Been working rather alot. But hey its gonna be all good when pay day comes. :). But apart from that not alot else... Im sure i'll have more to write about once ive been out a few times. :)

Peace.
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Ahh its been a while. I don't really know why i haven't updated. TBH haven't had the time. Work has been manic. I've worked probably more in the last two weeks than i have in my life! Well that's a lie but you get the point right.

So yeah works going pretty sweet. I like it. :) Looking forward to pay day! Which leads me onto the next thing im looking forward too. Yes the much anticipated eighteenth birthday! Ahh actually can't wait now. I'm just looking forward to being able to go out and legally get drunk, not having to be in by like one and just ahhh just being 18. It makes you an adult right?

Went to see that "Ugly Truth" tonight. I'll tell you what.. Most DEPRESSING film if you are A, single... B, Single or C, Just a girl in general. It makes you aww, makes you want to scream at the screen and it makes you wonder where the HELL are these guys? They must all be stuck in the cinema screens coz they sure as hell aren't where i've been looking. Argh it makes you want to come home. Drink by yourself and stay in bed for days... Or the complete opposite hit the gym and try and look half as good as the girls on screen who are always stick thin, perfect skin and long nice hair that looks good first thing in the morning when they wake up with a hangover... Which btw they STILL look good. Ahh. Films. Who invented them eh.

Well i think thats my rant all over for the day... I'll try and update more. So enough about me. How are you all?

Peace.
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Okay six girls... Four night in a caravan shouldn't be that hard to organise right? WRONG! there are sooo many choices.. Do we want Butlins, Pontins, Haven or some unknown places like church farm (although if your giving me points for technicality that is a Haven). But they are all so freaking expensive. So i start to look at one in Selsea.. near the dearest granddad... But then people will moan there is nothing to do? So do we shed out nearly enough for a week in Zante to go to Butlins for four night just so we might catch a glimpse of George Sampson in the evening entertainment? Or do we go for the cheap option take alot of alcohol and make our own entertainment?

Wow so adding a picture to the top of my blog makes it look oh so more attractive. ;) If only more people actually read it. I would love to become one of those millionaire people who just write about themselves and people are actually interested... Yet again i think that is called being a celebrity.. Gah.

So err. Yeah judging my the title.. things on my mind? Not really sort of. I don't really know. Its the same situation i've found myself in for the past 17 years.. i know that's my whole life. But I'm one confused kid. Naa everything is actually pretty sweet at the moment. Friends are wicked. People are happy. I'm tanned and have an awesome summer to look forward too. Just got a job as a lifeguard at Virgin Active. So roll on the cash flow! Ahh. I'm super excited about being able to get a cinema card. Sad right. But just think how much money it will save me! :)

My sisters keeper. Saddest film? Hmm im not really sure if it beats Marley and Me. But it is one tear jerker i must admit. It really does put everything into perspective and makes you remember a lot of things that.. maybe you don't want to remember. But then again it does make you thankful for the friends and family you have around you. :). Then the Hangover haaa. That just makes you want to get completely fucked in Vegas. Who's game? waheyy.

Meeting my new manager tomorrow ;) should be exciting. Then we will find out when i start. Hurrah! Bed time me thinks. (Y)

Peace.
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Ahh so holiday is over! Tunisia! What a country. It was soooo freaking hot. And what i didn't know was. Its in Africa. So wow. I've been to Africa now. Check that off my list of places. It was such a good holiday though. So relaxed, alcohol, the sun, new people, being with one of my best friends. But i am kinda glad to be home. You miss your home comforts dont you. Like your own bed, own toilet (weird), i missed the rest of my friends and nandos! ahh how i missed thee!

Going for an interview in a minute. I just have time to update the old blogger before i go. Its at Virgin active again. The job i didn't get a couple of months ago. They rang me this morning and said they have a lifeguard position available. So wahey hopefully i will no longer be a unemployed bum!

I'm really hoping this summer is good. My birthday is in a month and... three days. Canny wait! i need to start planning. I'm thinking hitting the clubs in Brighton! its the way forward eh. :).

OH one more thing. As of yesterday Nicolle is now a vegetarian! :).

Peace.
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Your meant to put a title on your blogs right? So why not make up a complete and utter random one to catch the attention of all those online Bloggers out there.

So.. Yesterday. Wow that was pretty awesome. Okay. Got tickets to go and watch BBLB in London. It was so amazingly amazing. All started on the train journey up there. Kings Cross station who do we bump into (not literally) none other than the HOTT Freddie from skins! OH EM GEE. He is just one pure sexy person. And i was standing so close to him. Like super close i could have licked him... But i may have got arrested for that. He was chatting away on his mobile telephone though so we didn't ask him for a picture! Dammit!

At the BBLB studio's was mucho fun too. We got talking to a group of lads from London. And in all honesty. If i was to bump into them on a street i would be scared! But they were actually so nice. Which taught me you should never judge. :). Well we couldn't take any photos inside the studio. But we met the once again very sexy George Lamb. Fwarr! He was nice. :). And some dude from The Office. But i didnt really know who he was. haha. If you watch yesterdays BBLB on replay... Im the one in the Coral Lepard Print top. Wahey. Famous much. ;)

Peace.
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Well well well.
Its been a while. :)

Sorry to all those Internet bloggers who expect an update more often. But i always forget about this. Even though i love to write. So update central.

I got into College. Wahey. :). So I'm thinking yay. New start, away from the "system" of sixth form. Which i cannot be more happy about that im no longer part of. Gah. They have come up with some utter shite for next year. Sorry but good luck everyone. So yeah im thinking about getting myself some accommodation down in Chichester. Which would be great. If i had four grand to spend! Four grand for a shitty room, it would be fine. If i could get a loan. But because its only a years college course i dont really want to blow my student loan on that. Meh. So long story short. Im gonna' have to commute.

Well this week is actually going to be rather exciting i must admit. Wednesday im going to London to watch BBLB. So keep your eyes peeled. ;), Friday im going to stay at my lovely friend Sian's and watch her college production of Rent. (omg note to self talk about Rent). Then on Saturday its her eighteenth party. Woo. Then Sunday arrives and we're flying to the land of Tunisia for a two week all inclusive holiday. Bring on the tan.

Okay. Rent!! Oh my. A local theatre company just did a production of it. And wow! It was the most amazing thing i've ever seen i think. Not only coz i love the show any way. Just the people in it were amazing (and hot) but im not going there. aha. But wow. That seriously deserves a mention in this oh so popular blog.

Apart from not having a job, which means lack of funds to go out. This summer is starting to be very good. :). And one final note... 55 Days till the big 18 birthday!!

Peace.
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In one day i don't think it is possible to fit any more in if i tried. After a weekend of doing nothing.. well nothing consists of reading a bit of Harry Potter in the garden with a pot of baby oil to help the tan come along... and rehearsals. (no change there then)
Well Monday morning shittilly comes along with its rain and general crap weather. Grr. Any who. Went to school. In the morning. Normal time. Which utterly sucks considering the system doesn't make you go in for tutor on a Monday morning.. Yet this seems to be the only day my lessons start at 9! Grr once again.
Well lessons. Bada Bing Bada Boom. Same old really. Then i had to venture into town to get the good old invention of the train. (which F.Y.I i hate). Dont know why. Just hate them... To Go to an interview for college. Which im not going to bore you with the details of... But it went well. And i find out within the week. All fingers, toes and anything else possible for you contortionists out there crossed. :).
But yeah. Train home... NOOO. Some selfish bastard decided to jump in front of a train, and make all the trains going to Crawley.. CANCELLED. Oh the joy of public transport. (hence the name today ;)) But yeah. Bus to a shitty other station which we then had to get a train.
To make things better. I missed 90210... so i don't know what happened to Ethan. And Britain's next top model. So i cant give you online Bloggers any tips. MY BAD.

Peace.
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Long time no speak, i hear you all say. That's if any one really reads this. Or am i just using it as a simple way of expressing my inner thoughts and feelings to the world wide web with no intention of knowing what people think of it... I think that's it.

Once again the computer has been broken, this explains my lack of updates. But too be quite honest not a lot has happened in the last however long its been. I got my hair cut. That was the most exciting thing to happen. Yep. I went short. Which has now grown i think a reasonable amount in such a short time. I think i like it.. Still indecisive.

Im going to continue my on going rant about the fact that i hate sixth form. Its not that i dont like it.. well it is but hey. Its just the whole system and the way in which its ran. Having people higher than you. Such as head boy or girl.. Im sorry but there the same status as me. Who gives them the right to think there one of the people that can tell us what to do.. I just dont understand it.

Got my college interview on Monday. Chichester here i come. woop. Hope i get in. Other wise i think i'll be joining Jo in America for longer than she expects. :(. Dontttt goooo!!!

Any how. I think i just saw a shooting star.. Im going to try and find it.

Peace.
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Don't you just hate it when your stuck in a predicament?

I am totally unsure of whether to get my hair cut really short. As in a mix between Sarah Harding and Frankie from the Saturdays...

I find that funny. When people refere to real life situations with the name of a celebrity. Its not like we do it to normal people. Because im sure no one would have a clue who i was talking about if i said i wanted to get my hair cut like Jessica... (random name inserted here) :]. So yeah thats the problem of the day.

Totally had enough of Sixth form now. Im actually counting down the days till we leave. Hmm let me see... I recon there are about 40 days left. Until study leave. Because im not too sure what date we actually break up on. So this is a random estimation. (Y).

Got my performing arts performance tomorrow morning. Which results in me waking up at six o'clock so i get to school for eight. How much of a mission is that. But hey ho. Life is a bitch like that.

Any ways old chum. I'm off to resolve the problems in the middle east... Or something along those lines.

Peace.
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Its getting slightly tedious now. Sixth form. The same routine. The computer and the lack of cash flow. Im not enjoying it. The only thing i am enjoying at the moment are the shows im doing, God knows what im going to be like when there all over. This is another reason why i need my big break. So if any one's interested. Holla. :)

Do you ever get that feeling that you were born into the wrong time period or born with some kind of super power? No i don't either. But im thinking that would be kind of awesome. Super power. Hmm. What would i have? I think it would be the power to read people's minds. Because i've had one of those days where i can tell some people are thinking "what a twat" or what not about me. And i would just love to hear what they are really thinking. Ever get that feeling?

I could go on and moan about everything that has pissed me off today but at the end of the day. There are bigger problems in the world. So i will save you all time and with that hopefully i would have saved a whale.

Peace.
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I would just like to take this opportunity to say what an amazing time i had doing Annie. The show this week was a complete hit. Standing Ovations two nights in a row. Its mad. You get a real buzz when she see an emotional audience all up on there feet. So many proud faces staring back at you. It just made me realise that's where i am meant to be. On stage. You forget about everything else that's going on around you. Any problems you have you forget everything disappears for that moment your performing and you get transported into other worlds.
Total cheese right. :). Well its true.

Next show is Saucy Jack and the Space Vixens. And that is where we really do get transported to other worlds. Well outer space for this one.. in the future. With very revealing costumes and a name like Penelope Poison Pussy. Yeah that's not a typing error. lol. It should be one fun experience.

Not much else to update cyber land on really? Apart from i now have a bit of pink in my hair and a burnt thumb... Damn those straighteners. grr.

Peace.
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