Doesn't it feel like a million years ago people were getting excited over Bebo and MSN. You used to come home from school and all you had to worry about was joint conversations, minesweeper flags, how many loves you got that day on Bebo and creating skins. Life felt so complicated then, when you had too many conversations going at once or you had used your three loves for the day. It literally seems like a million years ago now.

Now we have to worry about going to work, paying tax, car insurance, MOT, phone bills, TV licence, petrol. And thats before the month has even started, you've then got to fork out for nights out for birthdays and new clothes. (which obviously i'm not complaining about) But seriously though, how on earth are we ever meant to save for things we want. Like to travel or to buy a house of our own? It is literally impossible. There are so many things i want to do in my life, but it seems to all be going so quickly. I'm thinking when am i going to have time to do it?

Okay i'm talking as if im about 50 now, but approaching 19 i do feel as if i need to do something with my life. Which i do i know. But i'm not ready to settle for a full time office or shop job. I'm not. I get bored of doing things i don't want to do. So how am i ever going to hold down a job i hate? Yes i want to travel. But i need the money. I'd love to move out. But i need the money. Its a little bit ridiculous. Do i still want to go to drama school?? To be totally honest i really really don't know.

I've been questioning things a lot lately... thing is eventually i need to stop questioning things and start to answer myself...

Peace.
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