It seems that whenever I write a new entry in this Blog, a year has passed. In all fairness I completely forgot the password to this and have only just got around to re-setting it. Which is sad really because I love a bit of blogging. not that anyone reads it. But hey ho. Its good to keep a journal or a note of life. I mean hey, just look at how fast its passing by.

2011 has been an incredible year to say the least. It doesn't seem like two minutes ago I was writing about my excitement for Camp and my travels around America. Now i've been, done it, and been home the same amount of time I was away for. It really was a life changing experience. The things i did, the people i met, the cultures i experienced, the hard work i put myself through, the waking up at 7am after getting in at 2am, the meeting and becoming BEST friends with people that live on the other side of the world to you. I could go on, but i really would be here all night. And lets face it, its Christmas in 20 minutes.

Aims for 2012

I for one cannot believe its 2012. The end of the world. The year of England hosting the Olympics. My life seems to be flashing before my eyes. Its a big year ahead of me. And really. What do i have to show for my life at the moment? Not a whole lot. I'm turning 21 next year. By 21 most people are in a long term relationship, or at least have got something there with someone. But hey. Guess what. I'm still a lone wolf. Maybe this is because i spend my time writing to the land of cyber space? Or the fact that everyone that ever likes me, i find an excuse not to like them? Or maybe because i'm just shit out of luck and haven't found the one yet. So yeah. I'm turning 21. Big step in life. Its what i see as the turning point, the point in life where you are supposed to be a "Grown up". Wow. I've got a lot of work to do.

I have the same amount of aims and ambitions as the next kid. Wait. Adult. Thats scary. Calling myself an adult. I guess at 20 thats what I am right? However i really do think its time that i get off fantasy island and land back in reality. Like planning to move to America, live in California like the people on The OC. Thats all well and good. That will happen the day i win the lottery, or I some how come into money. But for now, i need to start making a life here. In England. Saving up, moving out, finding that one... Start a F... the scary F word. Family.

Thats something i NEVER thought i would hear myself say. I Nicolle want to start a Family. I mean woooow. Not right this second. But yeah. I want to be a mum. I'm not sure what it is, the age thing, the working with children thing or just the woman thing? But my mind has sort of been changed these past few months and yeah. I can safely say that the thought of birth doesn't scare me anymore.

so 2011

Its been emotional. Like the last 20 years. But 2012. Lets be having you

Seeing the devastation that has recently happened in Japan, I've decided my aim for the next week is to write a bucket list. If you are unfamiliar with a bucket list. It is a list of 100 (give or take) things your want to do I'm your lifetime. It can be from trying a new food, to sky diving in Neverland. I want to do one because the world is this crazy place and you REALLY don't know whats round the corner. My heart goes out to everyone effected by the Japan earthquake, i cant imagine the horror your all going through. Its times like these that you really are grateful for having a roof over your head at night!

Peace.
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Bonjourno

I can't believe i haven't updated since freaking boxing day!! So much has been going on since then. I really don't have time to finish the top ten moments of 2010! So lets just say it was a blast. Some shit times. Some amazing times. So that being said. We'll move on. :)

So. Camp America Hell. This needs updating. I got placed in January. I am going to French Woods Festival of Performing Arts which is in Hancock, New York. AHH. (excuse me while i die with excitement). Three whole months in New York. Its about two hours from the City, so it means i can go there for wee little day trips on my day off. I fly out on the 2nd of June. Which works out 94 day from now. 13 weeks to be exact. Not that i'm counting down or anything.

Got my Visa appointment on the 8th March. So thats in two weeks. And i'm telling you. The online Visa form. ARGHHHH. I've never wanted to punch my laptop so much in my life. So many times did it "Time out". Ridic. But hey. I got all that filled in. I just need to print everything off and make sure i'm prepared. The worst thing is you can't take anything electrical into the embassy. So no phone or ipod on the train. Sad times indeed.

On a less Camp note, i'm well and truely back at gym now. Which is all going well. Its strange how much i like coaching again. Its almost as if i never left it. :) I'm glad i'm back. I have missed the drama at that place. I start my new job tomorrow. New job i hear you ask? You are now looking at a Glee Club teacher. HA. Hell yeahhhh. I'm teaching kids from reception to year six, i've got three different clubs. Only for six weeks, but £15 an hour. I'm not complaining.

DEFINATLEY need some sleep now. staying up till 4am watching Lost is never a good move.

I hope all is well in the part of the world your reading from

Peace

Ahh Merry Boxing Day one and all. :) I hope you all had a fabulous Christmas. I've just got back from my Uncle and Aunties for the old Boxing Day cold meat fiasco. It wasn't too bad really. It could have been worse. lol.

I decided. I'm trying to name my top ten moments of 2010. Just to do something a bit more interesting. But i highly doubt i'll be able to pick just ten. I think this years been pretty sweet too be honest. So here goes. (Also there not going to be in order because that would be too tricky).

1. College. Yes that was actually a highlight of the year. I met some amazing people. Did some amazing shows, taught back at my old school, performed at a Christmas concert DRUNK!! haha. Oh god. So much good stuff happened. I suppose this brings us onto number two which would have to be...

2. Parties!! College parties at Marks. Wahey. They were always. Erm Interesting ;) haha. Then other parties with the normal friends, as well as nights out in Brighton, Crawley town, Timmy's 21st in Southampton ahh its been a good one for drunken antics. :)

3. Tunisia!! Ahh That was such a good holiday! :) Met some amazing people. Some of which i've already met before. lol. It was just two weeks of chilling in the sun, drinking, having a laugh. Having a midget entertainer. WOW. That was good.

Okay okay... I need to go now. So i'll finish the rest of my top ten like tomorrow. haha. Fail.
Peace.
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Its so strange, the thought of distance. My best friend spends more or less a year away in another country, comes home and we pick up like i saw her yesterday. Then there are some people "friends" i suppose, who live in the same town, you see every week and it seems like you haven't seen them in a million years, share no interests and are just generally distant.

It puts everything into perspective, when she comes back. There's only one person in the world who i could sit and talk to for hours, about life. Our thoughts, feelings, inner hopes and dreams, shark week for crying out loud! After an evening catching up with the best friend it really makes me think that i want a life. I don't want to be stuck here. We were saying, there are those people who are going to stay in one place, work in a shop for there whole life and be happy with it. I'm not that person.

I don't know what it is about travelling, whether its the thought of meeting new people, experiencing new culture, finding myself, learning new things, remembering old things. It just seems like the right path for me. And there's no bigger place to discover yourself than USA.

I kind of just had to blog to get it all off my chest. It makes me feel a bit better about myself knowing i've told someone this. Even if it is a website. No one understands really. Well they don't understand because i don't really know how to express it in words.

I mean there's a million fire flys out there. But i'm ready to catch just one. I'm ready to leave, take off, discover and learn. Its about time. I've been saying it for about two years now!! Damn that little thing called money. :(

Peace.
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MY Year in Pictures. :)

Four years this Christmas. Time flies. Forever with us. :)

How on earth is it already nearly Christmas 2010? Where has this year gone?? Seriously soooo much has happened this year. Lets have a look back shall we.

College. What a good time that was. New people, new experiences, new adventure. But even that seemed to fly by. I mean i was there till July. We did numerous performances and assessments but looking back it seemed like it was over in a week. Ah shucks. I miss it. Kind of. I miss some of the people!! DEFFO do not miss my hair. Who actually let me have SHORT black hair. You horrible horrible people.

Tunisia 2010 came next. Ahh that was a super awesome holiday. Met some amazing people. And re-discovered some one i haven't seen in ages and randomly met again. Small world eh.

Work at Vrigin Active came to an end... Happy days about that. It was a good job, once again for the people. But i definitely never want to be a Lifeguard again in my life. Unless its on Bondi beach. And that would purely be to hang out with the hot lifeguards there. But yes one door closes another one opens. Back to gymnastics. Which was inevitable it was going to happen. I'm glad i had the time off, it made me realise how much i missed it.

Camp America application. (which i still haven't been placed) but i'm going to a fair in Jan so hopefully i'll know by then...

A year of old's, new's, bad, good, exciting, boredum, hyperness, drunkess, hangovers, friendship, i would like to say romance but hmm, family, good health (apart from the swine flu situation), numerous hairstyles, 19th birthday, wii fit, re-discovering and general merriment.

Good year me thinks. Here's to the next.
Peace.
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Oh my i haven't updated in a while. Lets see whats new? whats new?

So my Camp America application is complete, i've just got to wait till November now before my application starts to circulate America. I'm too excited. I hate waiting. Although this month i have quite a lot going on so its going to come round quickly i think.

I've gone back to coaching gymnastics, which is so odd. I mean i love being back and stuff, but its seriously like i never left. Nothing has really changed, apart from a few new people and coaches. :) But this weekend is going to be really good i think. I've got to judge at the Sussex Championships, which is a competition i used to compete in like every year for about ten years. So its going to be rather strange judging there. It makes me feel so grown up. I hope people remember me. :)

Then starting next Thursday i am acting at this years Shocktober Fest at Tullys farm. Its going to be such hard work, but super fun. I had my first rehearsal last week and it was amazing. Ahh. I'm so excited for everything. So that will bring me up till November. AND i forgot the best part. I'm getting paid for acting. HELL YEAH. :D :D

Well i have to go to work now. :( Sad times.

Peace.
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So i'm bored. So i was searching through the world wide web. People's blogs etc. And i found some pretty pictures. So here they are. But i forgot where i got them all from. If any one knows. Do let me know. :)




WOW. He's beautiful. <3



I think this was taken from the same blog as above... Which i forgot what one. But its really pretty. I want to take a photo like it :)




I LOVE THIS PHOTO!! Its amazing. Shame you can't take photos like this any more. :(

Peace.
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Right so, after i sent my application off i joined to Camp America facebook group where i found two other people who have applied this year. We've been chatting constantly on facebook about it because too be honest i think my family and friends are sick of me going on already. But they both said they heard back from there interviewer like the next day. So i was a bit annoyed that three days later i still hadn't heard.

I went back onto my account and changed the person i wanted to interview me, half an hour later. BOOM email received with an interview date. HURRAH. Tuesday 24th August my Camp America journey REALLY begins.

I've become completely camp obsessed. I go on the website EVERY day. Watch the videos read the blogs, google camps that look cool. Ahh. I don't think i will contain myself for another nine months! haha.

I've started to plan the after camp part too now. Trek America are a travel company who work along side Camp America and offer camp workers a ten percent discount. So that's a bonus. The ones i'm looking at are about three weeks travelling so i'm thinking i'm going to need to save about a minimum of two grand for that. So yes. My life is OFFICIALLY on hold for the next year. But you know what. Its totally gonna' be worth it. :)

Peace.
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SO, I've just sent off my application form and first payment for Camp America 2011. Which i am so so so so so excited about already! It looks soooo good. My friend is there at the moment, but she's gone through another company. Ahh it just looks so good. I mean the facilities aren't brilliant etc but still! What an experience eh.

I've got so much to sort out between now and then. I mean i have to save money, get my visa, sort out flights, save save save, pay the rest of the costs. I seriously want to go now. I mean to don't even know when i'll be going. I'm waiting for an interview date now. But it should be pretty soon i'm guessing? The early bird catches the worm and all that. ahh.

Well i had to blog and just tell you all this. NICOLLE IS EXCITED. :)

Peace.
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Doesn't it feel like a million years ago people were getting excited over Bebo and MSN. You used to come home from school and all you had to worry about was joint conversations, minesweeper flags, how many loves you got that day on Bebo and creating skins. Life felt so complicated then, when you had too many conversations going at once or you had used your three loves for the day. It literally seems like a million years ago now.

Now we have to worry about going to work, paying tax, car insurance, MOT, phone bills, TV licence, petrol. And thats before the month has even started, you've then got to fork out for nights out for birthdays and new clothes. (which obviously i'm not complaining about) But seriously though, how on earth are we ever meant to save for things we want. Like to travel or to buy a house of our own? It is literally impossible. There are so many things i want to do in my life, but it seems to all be going so quickly. I'm thinking when am i going to have time to do it?

Okay i'm talking as if im about 50 now, but approaching 19 i do feel as if i need to do something with my life. Which i do i know. But i'm not ready to settle for a full time office or shop job. I'm not. I get bored of doing things i don't want to do. So how am i ever going to hold down a job i hate? Yes i want to travel. But i need the money. I'd love to move out. But i need the money. Its a little bit ridiculous. Do i still want to go to drama school?? To be totally honest i really really don't know.

I've been questioning things a lot lately... thing is eventually i need to stop questioning things and start to answer myself...

Peace.
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Sunrise on our last day :(



I really like this, it took me ages to get it right.



I took this randomly not expecting it to look cool




And last of all... I don't know. :)

Hannah, Me, Ben



Poor Karl :(



I'm super duper cool. :)

I'll upload the pretty artistic ones in a new post now. :)
Peace.
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Jeeeez, i totally keep forgetting to update this. Life has been pretty busy. Okay whats new i hear you ask?

Well... I've finished college now. Passed that. Very happy with the grades i got. But now i officially have nothing to do in life. Hmm maybe this is the chance to start writing my book! What should i write it about? I'll let my little brain tick away and see what she comes up with.

Just got back off holiday. JEE WIZZ. It was amazing. Met some of the best people i think i've ever met. In total i think there were like 15 of us in the group. But people left throughout and it was all very lonely towards the end. Just leaving me and Ben to keep the group going. It was so hot. I'm pretty brown. Totally gonna loose the tan quickly though due to shitty english weather. :( I'll put some photos on in a new post because its easier that way. haha.

My mum thinks the maid stole a dress she has. Its annoyed me quite a bit because why would the maid want a crappy Primark dress? Its silly. paha.

I applied for a new job just now. Weirdest job application ever. Meh tbh i don't think i'll get it. But heyyyy. I've gotta keep trying. OHHHHH. Went to see Toy Story 3 last night. Its soooo sad. Seriously i think i cried more than i did at the Lion King. Its the end of an era. Poor Woody and the Gang. (if you haven't seen it you totally have to go). The cinema was literally full of 18+ people. I think its because we grew up with Toy Story and like the kids of today have what? Hannah Montana and Spongebob. lol.

Well i think i've rambled on. I'll try and keep this updated now i have no life.
Peace.
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I'm really really really not in the mood for anything right now. ACTUALLY. i am really in the mood to quit work. I am really in the mood to fly over to America to visit my best friend who i miss sooo much. I would like to be able to drive legally. I want a car. I want to live closer to my college friends. :) OH...

The biggest want of all, i would very much like ALL men to stop being total head fucks. Like seriously. Everyone in my life atm seems to think its okay to be utter dicks, AND get away with it? Can any one explain this? Becuase i can't as hell figure it out. :(

Going back to my last post. I really really don't know what to do come September? I mean i know there's loads i want to do. But its actually getting the job etc. Personally i think i just need a job, where i can go to mon-fri (becuase i'm fed up of working weekends) and it pays well. Then from that job, i can save plently of money and afford to go to Camp America. Or at least just get out of this crappy whole town :).

I've come to the conclusion i think i need happy pills. Coz i'm always really like MEH. or feeling like i want to cry. or drunk. aha. which makes it even worse and i STILL cry. Like when i think about leaving college i get really sad, becuase there all really good friends now. When i think about September i think who the hell am i going to hang out with? Everyone's like going to uni and such. So i am actually going to be stuck.

MEH MEH MEH. I'm going to cry. :)

Peace.

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So the weirdest thing happened to me the other night. I was asleep. (as i tend to be alot) and in my dream i became paralyzed. Seriously it seemed soooo real. I remember like flinching in my sleep because it hurt. And then i woke up the next morning. Actually couldn't move!! My back hurt soooo much. And it hurt all all all day. Work was much fun (not) and now. It being two days later still hurts. Jeez. What is up with that. Its so odd. God knows what i did to it.

Work has been mucho boring in the last few weeks, so i have become known as the Artist of the lifeguard team. One little boy called me an "artist teacher" bless him. And i've also been told i am wasted as a lifeguard and that i need to get a job in art. haha people are so funny. :) So yeah here are a few of my creations...

They all look quite cool when there all put next to each other. :) I constantly get people saying oh you must be bored. I'm like YEAH pretty much. God if one of them is a mystery shopper im screwed. haha.

Half term now. Not really got much planned. Got a party to go to tomorrow, with a broken back should be fun. And then i think thats about it. Stupid being poor. FML. haha. And i'm also trying to decide wtf im going to do with my life come September.

Ahh well take each day as it comes eh.

Peace.

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