okay i think its about time i updated this other wise a certain DK might have a little fit.
back to sixth form. wow. the work load is crazy. people said year 13 was harder. yeah they weren't lying.
wow. had the Grease auditions yesterday. im actually still buzzing. its amazing. lol. they made us sing. about 4 different Grease songs. then they did it x-factor style and sent some people away. :O which i was shocked that some people went. But thats show business. ;) (i dont know how to spell that. lol) Yeah so i got told to stay along with the likes of Kiera and Dixie. and then we sang again. and we could go. :)
I think we find out the cast list tomorrow. How exciting. Then sometime soon i have an audition for Annie mate (Y). not actually Annie. unfortunately i wish i could. lol. and within all of this i still have to fit in Lion the witch and the wardrobe rehearsals. oh and my a levels. Ouch.
Life's pretty sweet atm. Yeah im still skint but im doing my lifeguard course soon so ill be in the monies. :) woop.
Peace.
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Actual. Crap.
there are some bastards in this world.
why the fuck would you want to steal a phone. Propa nice people in Crawley err at Bennett. yeah as you can tell im pissed off. :(
and then everything else happens that shouldnt even be that bad makes me feel even more annoyed. :(
i think i need a holiday.
Peace.
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first day back at "college". i say college with inverted comers because i suppose that's what sixth form is right? and it sounds so childish to say school. hmm. so yeah, started off by finding out im not going to be able to take psycology this year, after i brought a note pad for it and everything. grr, stupid clashes. ah well. theatre, production and photography should be a laugh. first three lessons i had free. cor what a boring three hours that was. but i shouldn't complain as i have none tomorrow. hmm.
ive already decided what i want for Christmas... is that a bad thing? my parents have decided that me and my brother are only allowed to spend £20 on each of them and only buy them useful presents. pretty cool idea, but ideas would be helpful.
wow this weekend should be pretty fun i must admit. im going to London on Saturday for a cruise thing with my papas work. free food, free drink. should be pretty darn fun. i might pick up one of them i heart London tee's. (Y). Then Saturday night is my jolly good friends [hannah and emma] dancing show. :) which always is a super evening out so yeah. well its not just theire show but there the people im going to be watching the most. get on my dancing shoes. good times ahead.
Peace.
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what a week. in a Forrest, riding bikes, being hoisted up trees, getting lost in the rain, riding around the outskirts of the Forrest trying to get back in for an hour, catching one fish, playing mini golf, winning the pool tournament, bruising my whole body on the rapids, talking to random people, pink shirt boy, crying boy, soulja boy kid, swimming pool man, shorts guys, wine man, hardcore ravers, wanna be ginge, skets, drug dealers and numerous other names i had for people. i still have the bruises, i have still yet to wash the smell of chlorine off me and I'm still waiting to see all the pictures. all in all. i would recommend center parcs very much so.
after the short time away i cant help but think even more about how i don't want to be here? as we drove back into not so sunny crawley, we drove past k2, we drove through town, theres the cinema, oh look its TGI's. Wow. oh the sarcasm. I've realised theres so much more out there and i think people who stay in crawley there whole lives, well i just feel kinda sorry for them. i would be surprised if i was still here in two years time.
i have a new plan, life guard in Australia. yes what is it with Australia i here you ask? well i don't know tbh. i must have lived there in some sort of previous life and my spirit is dragging me back to my home land. ha. home land. makes it sound like im from space. or just the fact its super hot and full of surfer dudes. but either way im destined to go there.
and then don't even get me started on Canada. but i think i might leave that for a holiday destination. like living in Australia "hey where shall we go on holiday? hmm i know Canada". Sweet. lets book it now.
so i say. live life to the full. your not made of glue so why stick around?
oo how poetic.
Peace.
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Ah hello sun. Ive forgotten what you looked like until you reunited us with your presence today. shame it was about 2 weeks late eh. Well never mind. i have a nice day sitting in the garden with the old ipod and BBQ. :) well I've actually had quite a good weekend. Shocker right. I'm not complaining for once.
Friday. took a road trip to the sunny town of Brighton. After chick took about half hour, and chick bumping the car into the wall, we finally got parked. so we thought. lunch time. as we were inside the mall we couldn't be bothered to walk all the way to Subway for lunch. So quiznos sub we thought yeah why not. A foot long sub.. okay they don't do them? whats the equivalent? an extra large one... WOW. they are so not the same size. it was the biggest sandwich I've ever had. yeah so cute long story short. i brought nothing other than food drink drink food and sweets. :D. Oh my word. weirdest thing though. we was walking through the lanes and we were all saying how weired it would be to see Pete from big brother. As we turn around, not even shitting you about 5 meters away. there he was in all his glory. Yes Lydia screamed. so we stood there for ten minutes decided who would go ask him for the photo, and as we plucked up the courage. he walked off. :(. ah well. Google him theres lots of pictures there.
oh and me and chick made friends with a nice polite... and rather hot man who worked in this tribal Indian shop. he gave me the card of his physic friend, and wrote him a message to get us discount ;). Anyone want to get a reading done road trip to Eastborne. Rock onn.
Jo being Jo decides she wants to go into the most creepy looking rock shop kinda thing to find an earring. okay.. we all entered at our own risk of course. and okay it was freaky looking but it was only a piercing shop... we thought. then we ventured downstairs. nothing could have prepared us for what was to come... (wow i could so write a book) the shelves were filled with mental and glass dildos, GIANT ones at that. and i mean giant. the type that could kill you. And porn magazines. and lube. (Y). nice shops in Brighton eh. i thought buy the sodding earring and lets get out. :) Exciting stuff.
Wow. a very long day that was, i was looking for a nice relaxed evening of drinking eating sweets and playing buzz. Well. Lets just say that wasn't going to happen. and it didn't. (Y) the excitement continued. but for erm "legal" reasons. i can't write it all on here. ;)
So that leads us on to today. where i literally came home, had a shower, sat in the garden, diet coke and ipod out. and did my HOMEWORK. yes i did homework on a Saturday. and i have a blog. Nerd. I think so.
Peace.
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bank holidays sure do mess your head up. i keep thinking its a day behind what it actually is. ergh. i don't feel well. :(. i have the worst cold ever and my throat actually feels like its on fire. not a pleasant feeling i must say.
oo my glasses have arrived. I'm going to pick them up after chiropractor tonight. I'm so excited. sad? yes i know. but at least i will be able to see what I'm writing eh. ;)
Friday. that's tomorrow. a road tip to Brighton i think is in order. the sea side capital. is that what it is? hmm. i was thinking. if you live in Brighton... which is a holiday town or city or what ever its called. you wouldn't need to take a holiday because your already living in one. (y) yeah. that's how my mind works.
so that's my plans for Friday. Saturday... hmm? I'm open. any offers?
and then Sunday i must be doing my packing because as of Monday i am off to center parcs. wow. i can hardly contain my excitement. noo. I'm totally kidding. i am looking forward to it. lets just hope I'm feeling better by then. and i think i may need to take out some insurance considering we are doing crazy ass things. like being put inside a ball. and thrown on to a lake.. yeah. I'm quite looking forward to that one.
considering its now quarter past 4 I'm thinking about getting dressed.
Peace.
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jesus, i havent wrote on this for a while. time to update cyber land of the exciting life that nicolle. :) hmm. i just applied for a christmas temp job at boots. thats how desperate i am. im applying for as much as i can. i want money. i still need to send off for my provisional. but i don't like filling forms out. i still have much summer homework to do. and less than a week to do it all i think. ah. i went to Thorpe park on Friday. wowsa. its so amazing there. i can't even remember the last time i went. i must have been about 8. Stealth. yeah. its all about stealth baby.
wow i was just looking through all my photos from Spain. that seems like so long ago now. it was kinda long ago. April. it is now august. Wow. time flies. It will soon be Christmas you watch. and then it will soon be 2012 and the Olympics will be here. :) that was a really random thing to add. but i must say. this years Olympics will be super hard to beat. it was amazing. The closing ceremony was today and that was amazing. i can't wait to see the crap we pull out the bag. i was saying its just going to be some sort of dance then "welcome to London Brap". naa I'm sure it will be awesome. :D
hmm i don't think i have anything to moan about today?
peace.
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i went to adult gym last night. that was my second time back in about three months. and corr does it still hurt. :( its been... six months since I've been off crutches and yet my ankle is still swollen and a little bruised this morning. i do miss it loads though. just being able to say "I'm a gymnast", or "i can do that" when i see it on TV. hmm.
I've decided I'm going to take up a new sport. Me and hazel think diving. :). The only thing we're not looking forward to is having to wear swimming costumes. but i suppose whats the difference to leotards eh?
I'm doing homework. well I'm not right this second. I'm having a little break. :) wahey. Thorpe park tomorrow. I'm so excited. i was a deprived child you see and i haven't been since i was about 6. so woop. didn't get out of bed until two this after noon. wow. its four o'clock. i didn't realise that. time flys. when your doing. erm. nothing. i wasn't actually asleep until two. i was watching films and the OC. i do love them.
better get back to the old homework.
Peace.
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Ive come to the conclusion that we have had our summer back in about May. i think the seasons need to be changed. its a load of crap. since when is it meant to rain in august? meh.
i got my ear pierced again today, the top bit, but kinda lower down. :) oh my god. did it hurt. and it bled so much too. like all over my new Batman top as well. :( Ah well. Beauty is pain right?
i got all my stationary for school today. wahey. i love stationary shopping. but now i just want to use it. Oh. Pink prit stick. how totally incredible is that. lol. yes i brought 4 of them. I'm going with a pink theme, pink glue, pink folder and a pink pad. :) niceee eh. all this talk about school brings me back to a recent post where i stated i didn't want to go back. i take that back. i was in a super bad mood and i think i just needed to write it all down to try and get it off my chest.
i certainly don't hate anyone, and bitching. well what do you expect. everyone does it. i can't say i don't because that would be a lie. but i do really want to just go to drama school. but yeah. to any one who i upset or what ever. i do apologise.
corr I'd be no good in the army. i hate conflict. id try and make peace with everyone and probably end up getting myself killed in the process. :(
oh dear. the ear is bleeding again.
Peace.
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I one hundred percent can't be assed with school any more. or most of the people in it. its pathetic, people cause arguments over the most petty crap. like not being invited places. when there's a group of 16 girls. how the hell is it possible to invite EVERYONE to one persons little house all the effing time? Do i live in a mansion? NO. i don't think i do. am i made of money to buy food and drink NO i don't think i am. so i don't see why people get in moods when a small group of people want to hang out. its not like they don't do it too.
i don't want to have to deal with another year of bitching, attempted relationships and work. i just want to get on with it. i don't want to go to uni. i want to get into drama school. move away from shitty Crawley and grow up. like most of us should have done already.
Peace.
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I have nothing better to do in the remaining hours of my 17th birthday than to sit at my computer and write to cyber land. I just returned from the cinema after viewing batman for the second time. its taken me about a month to pluck up the courage to go and see it, due to the fact it is filled with my number one hate, clowns. but i put on a brave face and i actually quite enjoyed it. looking through the jokers make-up and realising it was only Heath Ledger it wasn't as scary. his whole performance was incredible, the biggest shame that he died because he will most defiantly get an Oscar for that bad boy. oo and i saw at the cinema that there's a new film with Leo DiCaprio in, i will most certainly be going to see that.
I'm going to get my ear pierced tomorrow, not the normal ear place and not at the top either. the space in between. totally sounds weird but it looks super cool.
My obsession with Bridget Jones's diary continues and in fact i think i may start writing one. Or i might just carry on with this seeing as no one really reads it so who cares if i write my deepest thoughts and feeling right?
I've decided I'm moving on with him. If you know me you will know who. if you don't then you're best not knowing. He's no good and he just makes me unhappy. (sometimes) i say all this now. Wait until we go back to sixth form then it will be a completely new story.
Meh.
Peace.
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hmm another birthday. another year older. what can i do differently this year? oh. i can drive baby. woop. its kinda scary when you think about it. me on the roads. me driving, risking peoples safety. woah. i have warned you all.
I'm having a pretty boring day i must say, my cakes sitting on the table but I'm not aloud to eat it before dinner. gayness. I'm trying to organise a trip to the cinema for this fine Sunday evening. i love it when my friends have no money. :) oh i am too sarcastic for my liking.
didn't do too bad on the present front mind, i got £210, 10 driving lessons, provisional, plimsolls, dvds, top, money box . errrm key ring and £30 topshop voucher. nice little pile of things there if i do say so myself.
i want to go shopping in Brighton tomorrow. :) who's game?
any way i must dash. i think dinner is ready.
Peace.
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my friend hannah is the best thing since sliced bread. at this current moment she is painting my nails. exam results. hmm? do you really want to know? E in Media, D in Art, C in performing arts and C in Theatre. i was kinda disappointed with the C's. Even know i shouldn't be but hey ho.
its my birthday on Sunday. :) Going out for a meal tonight with the lovely friends. stupid English weather means having to postpone the party until further notice. Gah.
i found out today, in center parcs you have to cycle everywhere!! that's not a holiday. I'm gonna come home anorexic with a painful bum bum. ha. cant wait to see my mum on a bike. (y).
well i guess i must go only have an hour and a half to get ready. oops.
Peace.
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Sweet Jesus.
i get my results in less than half an hour.
i am 100% shitting myself.
Peace.
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a very lazy start to the day that was, got up at half twelve and after a couple of hours of farting around i am finally washed and dressed and ready to go.
my AS results come out tomorrow. okay now i think i am scared. I've decided I'm going to take singing lessons. :) i don't want to live in england any more, the weathers just too horrible. i think Australia or New York... hmm actually i don't think id like to live in NY it seems too busy. Ah we shall find that out when i go in November. (y)
I'm going to centre parcs soon. wahey. i mean if your gonna go on holiday might as well make it an awesome place like that. Wow. sense the sarcasm. well i think it will be okay. Mini PGL style. and I'm not on my own. my jolly good friend Jazz is coming with me.
Olympics. Team GB now have 7 gold medals. i don't know why i wrote that. i just heard it on the tv. ha. we really aren't a good country when it comes to sport. i mean the British gymnasts. we couldn't even qualify for the team finals. haa. ah well. I'm sure Beth will do us proud on Monday.
well I'm off to find the end of the rainbow now.
Peace.
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On this wonderful so called summer's evening, i am sitting in front of my computer. bored out my head. wondering where the sun has disappeared to, and what i am going to do tomorrow.
i get my AS results in two days. and to be perfectly honest. I'm rather scared. i don't think i realised how important this stage of my life was... until i began to plan the next stage.
its scary how fast we grow up.
Peace.
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